AKA: Entered a relationship with a Narcissist whose full time job was manipulating Women
Whew child! For the first time in my life I got food poising..It lasted me over a year..I had no idea what food poisoning felt like until I consumed this Omelet again for the second time
A few years of ducking and dodging because I knew how I felt about this Omelet and the only Omelet I prayed for even when we weren’t together..
I didn’t know then why I needed to pray for him but allowing him back into my life a second time showed me..
It was on a roller coaster ride. An upside down twists and big dips roller coaster ride..Shit was exhausting..and upset my full tummy
I really sat in the Big Tent at the Circus and watched this class act 🤡
I’m giving the short version because if I gave the long version this would literally be a book…I was supposed to marry him he was supposed to be my Life partner and I found out after already getting my heart involved that he was still married (separated for years but still) , he’s a cheater, a liar, manipulator and has unreleased trauma from his childhood so he has absolutely no idea how to treat a woman..This is a full time job for him..
Even if he wanted to know how to treat a woman, I know that without seeking a therapist he won’t ever change…
The sad part is knowing when you’re dealing with food poisoning is that what they presented to you and what you consumed is not who they actually were on the inside..
Lots of love bombing in the beginning and then just like that you’re like who the f*** are you sir? I often used to say I want my (calls him by name) back because I simply didn’t recognize this person.
The saddest part to this episode is that I still love him..I know I can’t be with him at this time but I love him like I want him to be well to get well but not like I want to be with him at this moment. I just want to be what no one else have ever been to him which is a good friend that leads him to help. Most people I know are like fuck him but the God in me wants him to get help and wishes well for him.
Mental Health is real and if you don’t address it or take care of it you will continue to move through life wrecking havoc on other people’s lives
This relationship forced me into long needed therapy in which was the most wonderful thing ever because it forced me to recognize my worth and who I am and how I deserve to be treated
Listen I’m not a licensed relationship therapist but I will say pay attention to the red flags 🚩 because I ignored them for so long bc I was blinded by Love and false pretenses and motives.
They was all up in my face and I ignored them
So like I always say at the end of my blogs
Y.O.L.K.
You only love knowingly
Omelethimgo 